Motivation

What helps us get motivated?  For each person motivation comes from different places. Some find motivation from an experience, while others use role models to get them going each day.

What motivates me? I have several motivating factors for my weight loss. The first is, you guessed it, an ex. This person "loved" me for my inside but couldn't love me on the outside. By the way, this has to be one of the most painful emotional ordeals that I have ever been faced with. We were together an entire year after this conversation and our relationship became strained and awkward. After we split up it took me a couple of weeks to get my thoughts together. All I could think is, how shallow, what a jerk...and, I hope he burns in hell. I gain a few more pounds then a few more pounds. Pretty soon a month has slipped by and I am feeling miserable, tired and unmotivated. Again my thoughts turn to the ex and I wonder how I am letting him have so much power over me. Done! The following week I have an appointment with my doctor to get refills on my depression/anxiety medication and sleeping pills (oh yes, this is what I have been taking to numb the pain and be able to sleep). I mention to him that I am looking for another program to lose weight. He hands me a booklet to the Kaiser programs. That is all it took. The steps I am taking are definitely for myself; I want to prove to myself once and for all that I am the one who has control over my life. No one else, and especially not someone who is not worthy of my love.

My second motivation is my family and friends. They have been with me through some of my worst times; fat, depressed, and just plain miserable to be around and they still love me. I know that I could not do this without them.